i just watched perks of being a wallflower and realised how much i used to love reading books. its not the same now , earlier a few years ago i wanted a library of my own and now i dont even remember what was the last time i read a book. i was so into stories that whenever, my new English course book came , i used to read all the stories in it , i was not allowed to go to the library or issue a book from my school until i was in 6th grade. i remember my sister issuing a book because they were forced to and i used to read them even though they were wack. that interest of doing so left since i grew up ,and i dont know why i just think maybe its because i am a grown up now or maybe i just didnt get the resources i wanted. i never had a library in town that i could visit , my school had a library but we could only issue some particular books they told us to. my parents never bought me books, i guess they never knew that was one of the things i was interested in. I sometimes wish i had a teacher like Bill in the movie who would give me good novels , which i would read but i never had good teachers like that. i dont have the money to buy books every now and then like that , i dont have a library and now even school is closed. i tried to search good books from my cousin’s old closet , either those books were boring or i had read them. music is doing what books used to do to me , i used to have various kinds of imaginations. i used to read the books at night to sleep ,that is exchanged with phones. haha .
i hope that when i grow up i have a library like belle in beauty and the beast. remember in bojack horseman when diane called it “belleroom“
i wish to have a belleroom or even a closet or a small rack or even a table for my favourite novels . i would settle for anything. i have been doing that my small but entire life.
i just hope i dont lose the curiosity of doing so.